If you saw me over the last few months of 2018, or just read the banal self-loathing crap that I occasionally spout, you’ll realise that I stepped up a gear from fat to obese last year. At the end of 2018 I was 16kg heavier than at the end of my 2018 detox.
Therefore this year’s detox comes in two parts.
The first part is simply 90 days without alcohol. Though since I started, I have decided to extend this until Easter.
With an emphasis on repairing my diet during this time, which has become solely focused on my brain’s short-term desires, my lack of energy and motivation hindering attempts at good behaviour during business as usual. Most days in the latter half of 2018 I had over 3,000 calories, which includes Red Bulls, chocolate, cakes, occasional morning sausage sandwiches. Almost all of my good habits of old, have been replaced by bad habits, to keep me going through the day.
As well as having given up alcohol totally, I will be giving up or cutting down drastically the following:
As I’ve said before, I know what I need to do to lose weight and be healthy – I have just totally lost the motivation over the last year, and had little time or energy. Giving up alcohol gives me the mental space to do so, increase energy levels and allow the positive feedback loops.
Analysing my last year, I think one of my main issues was how I dealt with the pent-up demand from my three-month detox, which as soon as it was over, I went on a food and booze consumption binge, pie here, pizza there, midweek drinks here – a genie that I never put back in the bottle.
So, part two will be only having one weekend on the pop per month, until I am down to 90kg. Which might take all year, but so be it. Not including holidays #OBS!
I have also set myself monthly goals – fail these and I’ll punish myself with vegetarian roast dinners. I have already failed my February weight goal. Expect a scathing review of a vegetarian roast dinner soon. FML.
I’m more than halfway through, absolutely not bothered at all about the lack of booze 98% of the time – I have had a couple of occasions where I’ve been pissed off and “needed” a beer, and there have been a few social occasions where I have missed it – like my weekend in Exeter last weekend…how good would a glass of red wine been with my steak dinner? Definitely not craving it like I was last detox though.
However, I don’t feel that I am feeling the benefits as much as last year, though last year I also gave up chocolate, cakes and severely limited red meat – this year I’ve just cut down from my over-consumption.
I’m getting there. I’m eating healthier again, doing a little bit of exercise where I get the time and broadly (seems to be my favourite word of 2019) feeling better. I’ve repaid some of my over-spending from last year and am progressing through some of my to-do lists, and started work improving my web development portfolio.
Once my detox is over, the challenge will be to find some form of balance, and not go back to binge-eating. Maybe I need a wife?
Slow progress, but as the saying goes – slow progress is better than no progress.