My Lack Of Motivation – Documented

I was in the mood for an argument this morning, and I achieved this within an hour of work.

The comments in my appraisal document are somewhat different to the appraisal meeting where there was nothing negative. So I have fought back.

Although James is in general a very bright and efficient team member and usually a good performer, this year he lacked motivation and drive, despite several team motivational endeavors and support made available. It is a fact that the workload increased this year. However, despite the extra aid supplied to James to ensure his workload is set to a more manageable and effective level, James’s performance dropped significantly in 2009 as he recognized it himself, which is already a step forward to the route of improvement. A Senior Management deadline has also been missed (BPP) . Year end figures against his 2009 financial target will however only be available in the end of December.

My response:

I am very happy with 2009, I think I have made an excellent contribution towards all of my targets, the team targets and the company’s imperitives as a whole. I admit that I have somewhat lacked motivation at times in the second half of the year, but this was due to the significant amount of stress received due to the previously deteoriated relationship with my manager (now thankfully repaired and working well) and the exceptionally long time that the grievance procedure took to resolve it, the lack of objectives, the frustration over the lack of support from other departments such as AR and many continually unresolved issues such as hundreds of accounts missing from Collections Management, poor responses from Atradius, amongst other grievances.
The deadline was missed for BPPs, however I would like to think that it would not have been had I received the instruction to complete them two months beforehand as I believe I should have done.
Overall though, I do believe that I have performed very well, given the circumstances, and expected improvements within the department and a focus on resolving the difficulties that I face in being as effective as I would like, will be resolved to allow for another very good year, and hopefully further improved year, in 2010.

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Anyone else fancy an argument? I am well up for it 🙂

The amount of shit I had to put up with last year thanks to ineffective management and the lack of response and support from other departments, makes me seriously wonder why I bother at all. And why am I still here? Oh yeah, annual bonus payment so I can afford to go to Ibiza. They better be paying one!!